11 12 06


hmmm .
today (x
gllb !. ytd i blog the whole night thn i go inside my room thn my mom go switch off the switch thn jitao i forget to save bodoh`
thn all nvr come out (x soobbs luh`
i posted so much sia . all just for him bcos its 101206` OUR ONE & A HALF YEAR (x

whadtever -.-
continue with today (((: woke up at 2plus bodoh . thn faster go bathe thn come online . chatted with ahhwee & frnds . ahhwee ask me if yuecheng cann add me ? thn i say dont knw . hahah . thn ahhwee jitao disturb yuecheng using my nick . hahha . bodoh`
thn met ahhwee , ivan & yue cheng at dhouby . thn saw my ex while waiting for them . hurhurs . whadtever -.- && on my way to meet them , i saw tht cb bitch . hahah . thn she scream like siao char bo -.- thn i call her diam luh . thn she stare at me -.- thn go tell the guys dont knw whad -.- hahah . lol . dont knw luh . hahha . same word , I DONT CARE (((:
i dont even bother (((: thn reached yishun . today work yishun sia )x
thn go take bus to find the base -.-
thn found aft two rounds of sitting -.- hahha . lol . thn on the bus , they keep on disiao-ing me & hwee sia . jitao dont like bodoh` . hahah . thn yuecheng jitao bth me sia . haha . he dulan bodoh . he say i keep on laughing non stop . hahah . lol . i nth to do mah . thn he say nth to do must laugh uh ? hahha . lol -.-
whadtever loh . hahah . thn ivan ask me wann ciggs . i tot dont have le so i say dont want . haha . lol . thn actually have -.- thn i take ivan just light de . thn puff once thn return baq to him . haha . bcos the taste so bloody disgusting luh . i nvr puff tht brand de (: && im not suppose to puff anymore (((: thn take ice cream le thn go sell loh . thn cb , got this uncle , jitao hse nice nice thn slam the fcking door at me . gllb . hahha . thn sales was quite lousy luh . thn behind behind was quite alright . hahha . thn ahhwee v. angry bcos he say jitao ppl see me thn buy (x hahah . lol . whadtever . hahah . thn go baq . thn saw many many many police bodoh . gllb . they keep looking at me sia . hahah . bcos i was waiting for ahhwee & ivan . hahha . lol . thn in the end ahhwee ask me to go thr thn i went loh . lols . thn police case over dry ice -.- hahah . thn cb kia sia . jitao suspect my guailan kia . gllb . ivan didnt loh . gllb . hahha . lol . thn i bought ice cream cake baq for sister . haha . its a surprise ohkays (x thn sales over $80 (x
hahah . thn today me & ahhwee each $ 32 bodoh` . hahha . lol . thn ya . go baq to the case . dont knw who the hell throw de sia . throw down using 1.5l cann !? wtf luh . haha . lol . thn dont knw whad happen luh . police come question ppl =.= thn boss in foul mood bodoh . hahah . he like so darn angry cann ??! hahah . lol . whadtever . luckily nvr check bag . if not die (x hahah . ahhwee & me were like , dry ice in bag -.- hahah . lol . but seriously , dry ice not ivan do de . also not me & ahhwee do de . lol . lucky sia . ahhwee at first break ice for my ice cream cake sia . luckily is different block bodoh . if not ltr kena accuse sia . lol -.-
thn went to take 812 baq to yishun inter ((: saw shengwei & ppl -.-
hahha . johnathan -.- gay (x
hhahaa . lol . thn shengwei & yuecheng v. disgusting =]]x
hahah . i pinch their nipps (x hahah . lol . thn lyktht loh . 1st time i 1st day knw tht guy thn i pinch their nipps . hahha . lol . they very irritating de loh . but superr duperr darnnn funny cann ??!! hahahas . lols . whadtever . thn they tell us is wrong bus stop bcos got temporary bus-sttop . gllb . bus driver dont stop thr at all luh =.=
hahah . lol . thn in the bus , ivan ask ahhwee if next time cann pair with me thn dont knw whad luh . hahah . thn i say cann thn ivan say dont want bcos ltr i not thr thn ahhwee beat him -.- hahah . whadtever loh . hahha . talk cork nia sia . bodoh` lol . thn ivan ask me if i still like alfred , thn i say dont knw . haha . thn he ask me if i like ahhwee thn i say no , i go say i like ivan -.- lol cann !? like im just joking luh (((x lol .
hmmm . thn they jitao steady bodoh` they accompany me wait for the bus 85 thn they cabb home . steady de fren uh ? hahah . lol . thn whadtever luh . hahah . thn got cb this girl diao me . thn i diao her baq . hahha . whadtever -.- i dont give a fcuking damn . like i care ?! hahah . whadtever luh`` i dont understand why girls just SO LOVE to diao me SO MUCH ?! hahah . like i got xialan bin ?! hahha . although i got xialan attitude luh . hahha . baobei & frnds also say so (x but true mah . if you cannot tahan me , thn dont be my frnds (x
thts enuff baby ((: wanto tio me also cann ((:
thn went home loh .
bahahhas` && im gonna blog abt some lil lil small part abt whad i've wrote abt ytd , the love tht i have for him ((:
&& ! anyway , i got my cardigan bought && hello kitty watch ((:
hahah . course me alot baby )x but it still worthy . bcos money doesnt really matter to me though money matters to the things tht i wanna buy -.- BAHAHAHHA`

the story just begin like tht ((:

100605 ` the day we started off && until today `
101206 ` ONE & A HALF YEAR aft all the sorrows & laughters (:

though we are no longer tgt , memories are always thr ((:
memories will always STAY until the end of time `
im tired of typing everything out like whad i did for ytd , && it didnt came out but i just wanto sumarise . my love for you is not describable in typing`
i dont knw how am i gonna express it to you .
there are still love within us . i knw .
though chances for us to get baq tgt again is rather low & as gd as NO MORE `
i always believe feelings are still thr no matter how far we are apart .
yea , we were drifted apart many times .
i choose to break with you && to you , you might think its an silent one . but it doesnt really matter to the both of us at first . until the day you asked for patch . it really mean alot to me . the feelings ` be it we are broken up apart for how long , the feelings are always always there . everynow & every when .
who knws ? none of us but you & i `
yea , my feeling for you once faded but still , no matter how many times it faded away , my love , my heart & my soul is ALWAYS with you .
if i could stop all these frm happening , i would .
bcos i wouldnt wanto see myself suffering too . i really love you alot i cann say .
the feeling tht i have for you is so different frm the feeling i have for others (:
bcos of the special bond within us ((((:
though you are no longer mine , i still look baq at the moments we once shared .
as you read all these words , i really hope you will understand how much you mean to me . its reallly alot . im not despo or whad . but i just want you to be by my side .
now tht you are gone , im hurting, really`
i could only thankew for all the beautiful memories & thankew for authoring sucha GREAT story in my heart , tht i promise , i will NEVER forget abt it (((:
yeas , i alrdy thank god for having you ONCE MINE bcos i knw SOME PPL just want you to be THEIRS but they just CANT . im really grateful tht i was once your girl who shared sucha great moments with you`
though those times were SO SHORT , i dont mind .
you ever heard of this saying ?
"bu zai hu tian chang di jiu
zhi zai hu chen jing yong you"

really , i dont wish for a FOREVER bcos i knw NTH LAST FOREVER ((:
im really grateful enuff to have you ONCE MINE ((:
of course i will wish upon tht we'll get baq tgt again .
i dont mind those hurts , but just give me another BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS with you baby`
i just hope to stay a lil longer more with you bfore the end time comes ((:
if we werent fated to be tgt , we wouldnt get SO CLOSE aft times of quarrels && even attend church tgt . you broke the imagine of a promise breaker && left me with the sweetest memories baby . you came to church with me . im really contented .
i believe all these while , we have been missing each other badly . though no words were spoken but we knw it inside ourselves clearly ((:
we would appear to be strong & feeling-less but deep inside us , we are so weak & fragile ):
all these while , all the misunderstandings , i hope i will have a chance to clear it with you baby . if we have the chance to get baq tgt again , i knw we'll be so darn close than ever bcos we knw how precious we are to each other`
all these while , you have been making me to wait for you . you haven really marked a FULLSTOP in my heart & our story`
im still waiting until now .

i could only wish tht one day , you would say , you have been looking at our past ((:

sometimes , i really wonder , whad do you treat me as ? a toy ? playing ard with my feelings ? giving me a cold shoulder whn you are sick of me ? && giving sweet talkings to me whn you love me ? as & when you like ? im not tht kinda girl like whad you think .
tell me tht you love me or tell me tht you love me NO MORE`
just give me a simple & short answer .
leave our memories alone && make it the best moments i ever had if you love me NO MORE `
but hold my hands again && tell me you love me if there are still loves <3
i really yearn to hold your hands && ask you to love me as much as before ((:


im really sorry to baobei , darling & frnds`
i knw im really sucha disappointment to you guys .
i knw you all have been waiting for me to give up on him .
i knw i once did & i forgotten abt him , but tht wasnt a real forget .
bcos someone just past by `
i knw i could live without him alrdy bcos im alrdy living withouth him .
but have you all stand in my shoes & spare a tot for me ?
baobei , i knw you did & i thankew for the trust tht you believe will forget him .
im really sorry .
i knw i cant allow his pair of eyes to attract me again but i couldnt stop it .
really , i cant `
trust me , its really difficult for me to not stop loving him`
bcos the past moments tht i've shared with him was really GREAT`
be it its ONE DAY or ONE MONTH (:
they are still precious memories to me `
really , its not easy`
i just realise i cant give up on him so easily .
esp whn some ppl are trying to get him (((:

hais``
but whadtever it is luh .
he only say you chio loh .
doesnt mean he likes you -.-
FCUK OFF FRM MY LIFE`


boy , these words are for you , read it && rmb it ohkays ?` :

" all i ever wanted is you
all my life i've been waiting
just for you to tell me
that you love me.
but just when will that day come?

love me
love me not
love me
love me not "


boy , during the past ,
whn there were only ME & YOU ((:

" When There Is Me And You
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe in
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you "


hais`
everything is over .
but there are still love within us baby ((:
i'd alrdy confused my feelings with the truth
&& thought you were my fairytale
but its all A WRONG mindset of thinking .
&& i didnt mind (((:

i would wnto only ask
"if nothing last forever , will you be my forever ?"

iloveyou`